Today I am just thankful that God is guiding my steps and my heart. And I am thankful for awareness and friends perspectives! We have been struggling with some issues with my oldest son for about 4 years now that finally got diagnosed as sensory and fine motor delays. The diagnosis got brought on by a severe speech delay and some pretty intense behaviors. Being in therapy has made a world of difference for him and the progress has been tremendous. He is a sweet, kind and sensitive little guy but is overcome with emotions that make him hard to handle.
We have gone down every road imaginable (almost) and have done homeopathy, acupuncture, an allergy elimination diet, assessment at a developmental center and have even been working with a life coach who coaches parents.
Things have been going fairly well at home lately, but at our parent teacher conference yesterday we began to understand that things have not been going well at school. I have had a few concerning phone calls from the principal and the teacher, but to hear everyone that works with him say the same things and to know that he is acting out for them like he does at home was devastating. Also being brought to our attention is that there may be some processing issues, meaning the problem may be deeper than we initially thought.
This mama’s heart is hurting and stomach is sick. But despite it all, I can feel God’s presence and comfort and I know I am being held in his arms. I am resting in the verses I have shared earlier about God knowing the total plan and that all this is working together for good, but He brought a few more to mind this morning that were comforting.
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil for you are with me.”
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
I can already see good coming out of all this in my personal growth and in my marriage. Being aware of the scope of his needs has enabled me to be more compassionate with him and react from on outside perspective not being caught up in his moment. And it is providing an opportunity for my husband and I to work together through this. I can feel blessed that He has opened my eyes and given me a hope for the future! Praise be to God, from whom all blessings flow.